A Year in Review

I never really understood the whole New Year's thing. For me, it feels more like New Year's in September when I go back to school. It is then when I make resolutions to be more organized, pay more attention to my students needs, or just be a better person in general. So when I hear everyone talk about this stuff now, I can't get in on it. In a lot of ways, it's just another day. However, since everyone is looking back on 2010, I can't help but be a little reflective.

When I think back to where I was exactly one year ago, and where I am now, I'm at opposite ends of the world. This year started awful. I felt hopeless and depressed and didn't think my life would go anywhere. Cool Mama and I were talking one day in the beginning of the year and we decided the mantra for 2010 would be "Fuck it." I let go of all the pain and let myself become a leaf in the wind...go where ever life takes me. It was probably the hardest thing for someone like me to do, and it wasn't easy, but damn my life took a drastic turn. And here I am, exactly where I wanted to be. I'm happy with who I am, in love and dedicated to all of my jobs. I'm excited to see what comes next! Most importantly, I have relinquished control of my future, and I am truly following whatever path life takes me on. I am balanced and whole.

Yesterday Cool Mama asked me what the mantra for 2011 will be. That's a tough one. I may have to get back to you all on that. I want to say something like "Keep the Zen Going," but I think I can come up with something better. In the meantime, I hope you all have a Happy New Year and drink responsibly tonight!