Still Ticking...

...so many things that is. My wall clock. My heart. This blog.

Despite my 'withdrawal' from NBC, I've decided to keep blogging. However, after a long discussion with Cool Momma, I've realized something. This blog isn't really about love and relationships; it's about me. And I guess that's okay. Perhaps I have obsessed too much this summer over whether or not I'll 'find the one.' What I need to do is change my course and start talking about the things/people I ALREADY love. I guess this blog has the ability to change like the tides, or the moon...

For the last week the energy has been INTENSE. Can anyone else feel it? I mentioned it in an earlier blog, but never really elaborated on it. Sadly, I can't explain it that well though. To call it psychic would be overdoing it...I can't predict the future. However, the forces (weather? space? stars?) out there have taken me hostage...and in some masochistic way I'm adoring it. Something's in the air...like change is coming and I don't know what it is that's changing. Perhaps, this time of year is MY own personal New Year. When the ball drops in January, I always expect there to be this physical change from 11:59 to 12:00...as if the world is about to split into two. It never happens and I'm slightly disenchanted by the whole thing. However, now???? NOW is the time for change- and I ain't talking Obama change. It's almost metaphysical.

Whatever has gripped my heart, and brain, I'm loving it. I wouldn't go as far as to call it a rose-colored glasses effect, but it's pretty damn close! And when in the past this feeling scared me, I'm now hopping on...and riding it like a bull at a rodeo. I want to see where this all takes me.